All in a day's work
I am just so tired and frustrated right now. It's like, you know, that feeling that you've drained yourself of all emotion and of focusing very hard over something that your body goes limp and your head is so dizzy you can't think of anything already? Ugh, was that even an understandable statement that I just typed?! No, this is not about luuuvvv issue but from my work. It's just so disgusting sometimes when some people use their authority to wash their hands off responsibility and make you do all the dirty work. I have to go back and forth to negotiate when it could've been so - oh-so-much- easier when she faced it herself and explained. I'm so not productive anymore. Add the two cups of coffee I took and there's all my energy going down the drain. I can't believe I even had the power to summon all that emotion yesterday just to cry and reminisce uselessly something that couldn't come back!
Not to mention that I still have to think about school and finish my homework. Still got loads of books to read and paperworks to finish. What a whiner I am.
Aaaggghhhhh!!! If only all the curses I can spit will take all of this shit. Ah, there I go again. Sorry folks, not in a very good mood as of this time. Actually using this blog to vent. Another reason why I don't give out my real identity in here. 'Cuz it's actually safer to say all the things you want when people don't know you yet and haven't built up certain prejudices or standards that you should meet in their eyes. I've made several a foe from past experiences due to them expecting me to fit into the stereotypes they themselves have boxed me in. Just because you appear this or that way to them doesn't have to necessarily mean that you have to actualize that person. So yeah, I am not your typical 'soft' woman --- I can curse and I will manipulate if it would suit my interest. I drink when I feel like it but I do not smoke just because everybody around me is doing so. My principles may be weird and can be twisted but that in its very essence has saved my sanity and so I exist. Ugh, that sounded like a line from a song with a bad tune.
Bottom line? I'm just tired so spare me.