1. Men

What's Tequila without her men? It always starts with the men: the jerks, the losers, and the very occassional gems that I find--- a bit rough on the edges yes, but otherwise, still precious. Since that fateful day of Feb 12 where things officially fell apart, I've come across a plethora of men coming from different directions.

1.1 DN

Mr professional photographer/videographer. He looks like a typical-cute-boy-next-door kinda guy but with a je-ne-sais-quoi kick. Rumor is that he has a kid already, from someone he had a one-night-stand with a few years back.

He's a fun guy to be with. We've had several dates already. I like him considerably to want it to last, so I'm taking it slow with him. No bases have been covered--- we're wholesome like that--- at least for now. Haha. I hope I can control my urge to run my fingers over his messy slump of hair and kiss that cocky grin away. Before I start fantasizing again, let's proceed with guy number 2...

1.2 Real

Yup, he's real. *hint hint!* We had two dates which all ended up in bed--- the first one on his; the second, on mine. We were so sneaky he ended up in my room. Nobody has yet to do that ever. Crazy guy. What I didn't like about him was that he wanted things to be too private--- so much that he didn't want us to be seen even greeting each other casually at work. He said he didn't want any controversies. A controversy just because you said hi to a co-worker? The fuck he is mocking my ass so I didn't believe him one bit. I blocked him on my phone. He deleted me in Facebook. But just last night, he initiated contact. Guilt? Mere friendly? I know not what. But what I know is that I will do my best not to repeat THAT.

1.3 High school chum

From a good family. Good clean guy, with a sense of humor too. He says hi. I say hello. He keeps saying "Musta?". To where he's heading, I dunno where. But he better do something more to get my full attention because honestly? He starting to bore me.

1.4 Mercedez Benz

He's definitely fourth on my list because I've kissed him. haha. That's right. I got drunk and I puked all over but he cared for me so in gratitude, I kiss him. Crazy really. Nothing more to it. Sister made such a big deal out of it but really, I couldn't care less.

1.5 Gerald

"Kumusta naman ka, Maam?" Erm, mao ra na siya. Plus, I heard that he's an airhead. Pfffft.

1.6 Professor!

At one point around April- May, I had fantasized being in a long relationship with this guy. He's old, he's mature, he's established, and he has a nice teddy bear body that's curiously interesting thing to hug? He's Honey's favorite professor from way back college too. But he has a terribly nasty past with an ex-gf, involving living-in's, brothers, and throwing of things out of the house. That kind of drama. I'm not sure if I want that. So I guess I'm better off him.

1.7 Isidro

Hahahaha. Now I'm really mentioning names here! But that's fine. I haven't even met him in person anyway.

1.8 My-God-I-forgot-his-name!

An officemate suggested that we meet. I didn't like him that much. He didn't like me either. So we continued with each other's lives apart. Besides, for a guy, he spends so much talk on gossip and on commenting on the lives of others. I don't think I need that anyway, so good riddance.

Do I regret my misadventures? To be completely honest with myself, I actually don't. Now that I'm older, I've realized that I cannot continue apologizing for being who I am, for jumping and acting on those occasional impulses... because hey, I am merely living my life!

My life is something that very few will truly ever know totally. I see my life as a spectrum of colors, full of experiences that others only dream of.

2. Career

I resigned and moved... but returned back again only after two months. Sigh. It had been one of the most difficult decision in my entire career life. Now that it's over, I cannot say much about it already. But at its peak, it had been very difficult. I had to cry on four different occasions facing four different people. Ugh. I was so embarassing!

3. Adventures

3.1 One thing less off my bucketlist --- scuba diving!

3.2 Almost off my bucketlist--- getting painted/ photographed nude --- I now have contacts!

3.3 Driving--- I really should get that student's permit already... Argh.

4. Thesis

It's moving and progressing. Yay! :)

That's it. Don't expect any cinching close, but there ain't any.