Uninspired
I can't remember when's last time I really felt beautiful. That I really smiled. That I felt I could really make a difference.
Me, right now, is just me. Not the ME I used to feel I was.
I look into the mirror and see that I have changed a lot since almost two years ago. Yup, most say I had the look of smug independence and success, thanks to my good-paying job. But, my eyes do not seem to shine that bright anymore; they seem... hollow? My brown eyes show sadness.
Not that I try not to be happy. Not that I don't try to move on. I guess I have. Don't get me wrong. I no longer illusion that things would go back the way it used to be--- to be more specific, that he'd come back to me.
I doubt it if I'd even be contented should he suddenly come appearing today. I've become more ambitious to probably accept the mere humble things that he could only offer. True, he would make me happy. But not satisfied. I need more now.
I don't know how to end this post. So, blunt is the only way to go. But that's expected...
Because I'm uninspired.