Time
As somebody has once said, "Love makes time pass; Time makes love pass."
That's probably the best line to describe how I have been, how it has all been, and how people move in and out of my life. A year ago, I probably would have never imagined I'd be like what I am today, I would have never thought I'd be with someone who makes things so easy and fine.
Six years ago, when I was created this blog, I had never thought I would be happy even if I didn't end up with the person who stirred so much fire in my younger self. How I've always fantasized of complicating things, putting and imagining so much drama more than what's necessary, and I've always ended up magnetizing the things that I fear would happen.
Not that I do not have doubts with Sweety... everyday, I do my best to push my fears aside... He has made me so happy the past three months. He has made things so easy. I never thought I would be able to laugh like I do now. Sometimes, I want to cry with happiness because of the simple things that he does. I'm pretty sure he doesn't even know the extent of my gratefulness for his love.
There's very little in him that I've typically required of my men. He is not tall. He is not handsome. He is not accomplished in the sense by which the conservative society measures the usual person. He is different. He gyms, for God's sake!
But then, he was won me over. He has conquered me. And although it took a lot of effort to accept that I am truly attracted to him and that I love him, when I did... everything became so effortless. He waxes my underarms. He prepared me a candlelit dinner. He surprises me with flowers on the most unexpected of occasions. What's not to love about that?
I love him, beyond words, and more than yesterday.