shit happens
Shit. Shit. Shit. Can I just say it one more time? Shit. (Sigh) If only saying shit can ease up the situation right now, I'd say it a million times. But I'm afraid it can't, it even can't appease me right now. I wish I can just disappear now.
I am now beginning to be truly convinced that I am my own destruction. Why am I always ruled over by my moods? Shit. I did try to do my best to overcome it, still am doing it. And yet, it still persists.
Pisti na gyud ni. Giatay. I can't blame anybody but myself for this. My cousin is taking in the position of Dean next month (and of course eveybody friggin' knows we're cousins) and all I do is embarass her.
And I would've wanted to ask for teaching load this summer. But how could I possibly do that now when I have done a big shit. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....